algidity | I Howl When We're Apart

[ ANOTHER COUPLE HOURS LATER ]

okay no that was awful i shouldn't have said that
i mean it's the truth but it's not what you want to hear
i just want to tell you that like
i know what it seems like
but i'm not leaving you okay?
i'm not going anywhere
i'll be here
and i'm cool with waiting
because you're worth it

[ next day! ]

i couldn't sleep without you

[ and a couple of minutes later. ]

that probably wasn't the right thing to say
sorry
i'm just letting you know that i'm not gonna stop messaging you
i don't know if you're reading them
but i'm not giving up on you okay?

[ He'd message Allison, but Scott can't find her anywhere. Not that he's telling Isaac that. ]

[ another few hours later. ]

i'm actually starting to miss parker scratching me
isn't that funny?
i guess i took him for granted
i took you for granted too
i won't do that again
promise

not that i'm expecting you to forgive me
i wouldn't forgive me
but i just want to let you know
i won't mess up again

i miss you

Scott im not mad
seriously

ive just been thinking.
Its seriously okay.

[ No one ever apologizes to him. No one, they just take him going through shit for granted, so an apology would have soothed any anger... Not that there was any.

A couple minutes later... ]

It was just a kiss anyway
its whatever.

[ Is he talking about Scott and Allison or is he talking about Scott and him???? ]

But yeah sleeping kinda sucks...
did you know derek likes cats?

[ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]

it's not okay
and you're allowed to be mad
you should be mad
i'm sorry

[ He gives off a grump face at the "it was just a kiss" text, because no, he doesn't accept that. Not from Isaac or from Allison. It's a lot more than that. ]

it wasn't /just/ a kiss isaac
not to me

[ He types up what am i supposed to say? i like you isaac. i love you. but of course he doesn't send because wow, that's not helping anyone. ]

do he and parker get along?

[ The thought makes him a little sad. ]

[ ... ]

Im not mad

Scott
i
am
not
mad
.

[ Yes, he gave you a text with a simple punctuation. ]

Its okay.

We dont have to talk about this.

[ He knows they really do. Because that's the only way to get past it, but why not take a page from Stiles and pretend there isn't a problem? At least for now.

He types a text I trust you but wipes it out instead. ]

Yeah dude he cant even be grumpy around parker.

well if you aren't mad you must have felt something
stiles said betrayal maybe

[ It wasn't betrayal to Scott, sort of, he knows he messed up but he didn't betray Isaac. It was all in innocence, all in good faith. Not that it really seems that way. ]

i want to talk about it
isaac
i really really really have a lot of things to tell you
okay?
i can tell you over text if you want

are you staying?
with derek, i mean

[ He's not hurt over it, Scott has to tell himself not to be hurt over it. Isaac can take all the time he needs. If he doesn't want to come back... well, he doesn't have to. He can do whatever he wants. ]

Numb

[ It's honest... And he almost didn't hit send... Might as well be honest now. ]

and kinda dumb.

[ There's another long pause, long enough to probably seems like he's not going to reply... But then he's responding again. ]

I dont want to talk about this right now.
You want to get back with allison thats cool
we are still friends its all okay.

With derek tonight???

Edited 2013-09-13 03:58 (UTC)

[ Well that stings something terrible, but Scott knows he deserves it. He never wanted to hurt Isaac - or Allison for that matter. Not in a million years, and he kind of wants to rip his heart out over the fact that he did. ]

you're not dumb you shouldn't feel dumb
can i just say one thing?
i'm gonna anyway
i don't regret kissing you
i don't regret kissing allison either
my feelings towards you both are the same
/exactly/ the same
if you catch my drift

[ He's fine with being just friends, fine with not talking about it, if that's what Isaac wants - but he at least deserves to know Scott's feelings. ]

and okay
give parker a few pats for me

[ A little while later.... ]

I dont regret kissing you either.

[ That's a good sign, right?.... ]

I will if derek ever lets him go.

[ He's almost disgusted with how happy he is over it - it really shouldn't feel like a victory, because it's not going to be that easy - but it does. Scott feels like he won, just a little bit. ]

that's all you need to say
can i tell you something else?
i'm not sure if it'll upset you right now or not
but it might help to get my feelings sort of
out there

haha don't take him away from derek
he probably needs kitten cuddles more than me

Not like im going to stop you.

I think derek is gonna be a crazy cat lady
is that weird????

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